Sometimes on nights like these I ponder over the plethora of compliments about how I’m a good boyfriend, how I’m everything she could ask for. Nights like these where she cries after I say something, I call, and she won’t even talk to me and then hangs up. How can I be everything she says I am, when she still has nights where she has to cry herself to sleep. Many it’s me just taking the little bad things that make a relationship stronger and applying that to the entire thing. Things like this get to me at times. It’s the fact that I come closer to accepting I’m not all that she hypes up, I may try my best to be the picture perfect boyfriend, the one other girls are jealous of because I’m all hers. I just don’t think I can be everything I want and she deserves. No doubt I will strive for the highest summit of being a boyfriend. I just hate nights where my mind weaves these negative threads that seem to bind my thoughts into something bigger than it should be.  

Today was my last day of high school, and I have some mixed feelings about it. On the bright side I’m done with dealing with a lot of fellow students and teachers I’ve grown to hate. On the bad side of this is the fact that I won’t be seeing my boys almost every single day. This guys have been there since before we even entered high school, and it’s going to be pretty difficult to adjust to not always being around them. I always say how much I hate my school but when it comes down to it I will love The Prep forever. The memories I made here are unforgettable, and a tad of the stupid side. I’m sadden to see this come to a close but that’s a part of growing up. I think I’m ready.